I've been trying to get myself to continue working on my thesis but the mood is just not there ... it's been like this for the last few days. So, as usual, when I am not progressing with my work, I start to feel stifled, worried and antsy. I know I've got to push myself but I just can't ...i can't even force myself to read what I've written so far. What is more worrying is that my supervisor wants to see what I have done so far with my 2nd Chapter and I am supposed to email him whatever I have by the end of this month ... which is just a few more days ... yikes!!! Based on my experience, I am always more productive when I'm writing at home in Malaysia. Why is this so? Well ... simple ... my support network is there, I'm in familiar surroundings ... i don't have to spend time cooking, I can release whatever pent up emotions whenever I need to, by going anywhere or eating anything I like. If there is expertise in Malaysian academic institutions in my research field ... i would have been more than happy to study in my country.
But at the same time, I do have to admit that institutions of higher learning in UK have way way much better academic and research culture as compared to Malaysia. Well, i guess i am just angry with myself for being undisciplined. i wish there was a pill I could swallow to overcome this negative mood and just get on with my writing coz i need to finish my PhD on time and get home ASAP!
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